The sixth and seventh pages are sheets of graph paper; on the first, Rémi has constructed a maze, each wall a darkly penciled border atop the light blue lines already present. On top of the maze, obstructing the view of some of the turns, sure to confound the would-be escapee were this maze meant for some one, instead of no one, written in thick magic marker:
real people are
not defined by
the boundaries of
the absolute


On the seventh page, a timeline:
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begin

6-10
eight mile hike

11-12
consumed one cup of coffee (8 fl. oz.)

13
consumed two eggs, one slice of toast and one glass of milk (8 fl. oz.)

15
first signs of fatigue: body soreness, yawning

16
felt wide awake; underwent morning exercise routine (two sets of twenty push-ups, four sets of ten sit-ups, two sets of ten pull-ups, stretching, two-mile jog)

18
laid down on hardwood floor; possible blackout lasting no more than five minutes (18:03 to 18:10)

18:15
consumed two slices of bread, one slice of cheese, one slice of ham, one-half cup of spinach, one egg and one glass of milk (8 fl. oz.)

19
feelings of anxiety

20-20:15
watched a segment of the afternoon news (about crime)

20:30
compulsion to organize: arranged desk, cleaned apartment

20:40
upper half of the body remains still while bottom half twitches, consumed two glasses of water (16 fl. oz.)

21:30
temporal interpretations become distorted; possible blackout lasting no longer than fifteen minutes (21:32 to 21:54)

22
colored circles are visible on ceiling
shortness of breath
unwarranted feelings of frustration

23:10
consumed one serving of steak, one egg and two glasses of water (16 fl. oz.)

24
feelings of anxiety and fatigue
yawning becomes constant
desire to sleep prominent

26:50
spots and shadows appear in my peripheral vision

27 to 30:15
eight mile hike
high feelings of anxiety and stress
inability to make decisions
consumed one Hershey's chocolate bar
feelings of unfettered glee

31
complete alertness

31:15
ceiling glimmers

31:36
moods are violently swinging back and forth over very short periods of time
slight paranoia
speech slightly impaired

32
consumed two cups of coffee

34:30
watched television (cannot remember what I saw)

35
alertness

35:25
feelings of complete placidity

35:45 to 36:15
tried to read a book; could not make it past the first page

36:30
breakfast again

37
leg is anxious, no desire to speak

38:10
depression, apathy, defeatedness

38:20
head falls forward onto desk while sitting up (but no sleep), one cup of coffee

38:30 to 39:15
television

39:20
first look in mirror: bloodshot eyes, constricted pupils

39:40
image ghosting (first noticed around 37:30) and disappearing wisps/specks, stomach pain resembling hunger pangs despite lack of hunger

40 to 40:12
CATHARSIS (see pages 50 and 51 of field notebook #4)

40:30
possible blackout lasting no longer than 10 minutes (40:30 to 40:44)

41 to 42:30
three mile hike

42
can't remember the last few hours except for what I wrote, time is distorted

42:35
depth perception altered, walls breathe, dizziness, ability to speak completely gone

42:40
sandwich, coffee

43:30 to 45
television (news? or a movie? something with guns)

45
hands appear distant from body, mental processing very slow

45:45
listlessness
serene calm
lack of emotion
dizziness
word recall impaired

46:50
surge of adrenaline

47:10
lack of interest in everything

48
food

48:45 to 50:15
read The Plague by Albert Camus, words smeared while reading

50:30
lack of balance/coordination
movement slowed
sensitivity to light
complex thoughts difficult to process
one-track mind
common sense impaired
complete short term memory loss

52
coffee

52:30
feel reinvigorated, some paranoia

52:50
anxiety, far too much energy

56 to 58:10
four mile hike
image smearing
lethargy
reflexes slow
unnerving calm that is not unnerving

58:15
I don't feel well

58:40 to ?
television

59 to 61:15
total blackout of information
dreams merge with reality
death becomes me
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